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Slipping Into
The Dark Side

This is a Beta version. There will be grammar and editorial problems. This is a sneak peak. Changes will be in final draft, expected to release November 2024

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Chapter 1:
Soviet Russia 1980


There was something about funerals that made Tatianna feel…
Bored out of my fucking mind. 
She lit a cigarette leaning against the iron fence to someone else's grave. The cemetery was cramped with the dead, with massive tombstones and extravagant statues of Jesus, Mary, or some angel. Tatianna was not religious, but everyone around her seemed to be. Truthfully she didn't understand how killers and rapists could still believe in a higher power, but that's how it was in the mafia. The hypocrisy was everywhere. 
With judgmental blue eyes, she watched the burial, blowing smoke into the wind. Over four hundred people were in line, ready to throw in dirt or coins, honoring the old bastard. Their black Moskvitch cars lined up the paved road. So many wore the ugly Soviet Uniform, black with gold buttons and red sashes, while the women wore headscarves and stockings with their dull, tight dresses. She thought she'd see more invigorating outfits by coming to Moscow, but instead, it was the same lame outfits her mother used to wear. She couldn't wait to move to another country; she'd even take America as a last resort. But families like hers never moved far from each other. She was stuck in Russia for the rest of her life.  
Novodevichy Cemetery was beautiful, with big trees full of shade and well-cared-for grave sites. How Yaroslav got into such a pristine cemetery made no sense to her. A Stalin lover should be chained and dropped to the bottom of the ocean. But the fact that there wasn't much grief aside from the forced sniffles and the mocking pats on the back made the funeral entertaining. Yaroslav Morozov had never been anyone's favorite boss, and he lived much longer than anyone had hoped. 
Tatianna was searching for the men who would want to take his place as leader of their illegal operation. Her father wasn't ambitious enough. Andrey Nevsky was a small drug lord in the South and was content with his life. After her mother was killed in a car crash when Tatianna was thirteen, Andrey preferred to be out of the spotlight and raise his ten kids, hoping they would live long and prosperous lives. But it didn't work out. Tatianna's sister killed herself at sixteen, and her brother had a rare cancer that devoured him from the inside out. He died six months ago, nearly on Tatianna's nineteenth birthday, leaving her to take the place as the eldest child
I was bored at that funeral, too.
 
There was too much in this world to do than sit and grieve. Life was just beginning, and she wasn't going to waste it. 
Tatianna glanced down at her watch. She had a job interview at six but doubted she would return in time. It was a crappy little job at a clothing department, but it would be something to stop the boredom from taking over. 
"What time is it?"
Snapping her head over her shoulder, she saw a man approaching in a black suit with his hands in his pockets. His bright blue eyes were the first thing she noticed about him. She blew smoke in his direction, "1 p.m." 
"Got somewhere to be?"
"That's none of your business," Tatianna bit to the stranger. "But yes." Her father was taking his turn around the grave with her sisters and brothers on his heels. Would he notice if she left? Most definitely, she would hear about his 'embarrassment' for weeks. 
"You knew him?"
"Who?" she snapped, bitter at her father and this man who wouldn't let her fume in peace. Then she remembered she was at a funeral. "Everyone knew of him." Tatianna dropped the cigarette on the floor and stepped on it. "I didn't personally know him."
"Can I have one?"
"You ask so many questions." Tatianna pulled one out of her clutch and held it out, propping her hip to demonstrate her aggravation. 
"Got a light?"
Her eyes narrowed, but he didn't seem to care how he was coming off. If this was some form of flirtation, it was failing big time. She made sure he took note of the ring on her hand as she held out the light. He didn't immediately reach for it, observing her with his freaky-looking eyes. She tilted her head in aggravation, waiting for him to pluck it from her fingers. Eventually, he gently slid it from her. 
"What's your name?"
She gave a fake smile, turning back to him. He was probably used to whore names. Any man that wore a Rolex could afford a plethora of whores. "Candy."
A smirk twitched his lips as he inhaled and held out the lighter. 
Tatianna grabbed it, but the man tightened his hold on it. He was humored as she attempted to pull. She stumbled back when he released it, and her 3-inch heel got stuck in the dirt. Humiliation wasn't something Tatianna felt often, and she glared at him as she wiggled her foot. He was hiding his laughter. It made his blue eyes brighter and took the darkness out of his brow. He leaned his elbows on the fence to watch her more closely. 
Wanting to destroy his pride, she snapped. "My Name is Tatianna Nevsky." She got some satisfaction out of his look of surprise. She pulled her leg and stumbled, smacking a hand on the iron gate to steady herself. It put her inches from his face. 
"I thought all of Nevsky's daughters were hideously deformed." 
"We are," she replied with a sweet, tight smile, straightening up. "Some of us hide it better than others."
"Tati!"
Tatianna groaned and rolled her eyes before she put on a pleasant, beautiful smile and turned toward the man approaching. Her boyfriend, Fedor Utkins, was the size of a buffalo with broad shoulders, a slender frame, and a long, thick black beard. At twenty, his facial hair was his pride and joy, and he spent an hour in the morning combing through it, tweezing and shaping it to the perfection that it was today. It was a conversation piece at awkward moments when people focused on his black skin next to his white-skinned father.   
Fedor slowed as he approached, his eyes narrowing on the stranger behind her. Tatianna thought about explaining the situation, but with the man behind her, she didn't want to appear weak, so she said nothing until he was standing right beside her. 
Fedor's fingers slipped around her bicep as he faced the man. Tatianna dutifully introduced over her shoulder, "This is my fiancee, Fedor Utkins."
Fedor held out his hand, "Good to meet you, Mr. Morozov."
Tatianna snapped her head around, wide-eyed, as she met the light blue of Morozov's gaze. He was still fucking humored, and she hated him for it. Did he think she was impressed?  
"My deepest condolences." 
"Yakov," Yakov introduced himself as he shook Fedor's hand. "I'm not the heir. Just another son."
Tatianna turned to face him, forcing Fedor to let go of her arm if only to rest it on her back. "Condolences, Mr. Morozov." 
Yakov blew out smoke, flicking his eyes between the two of them. The quiet was unsettling, and Tatianna ran her manicured fingernails through her blond curls in a mild attempt to move whatever this was along.
"It's such a tragic accident," Fedor finally found something to say.
"An accident," Yakov repeated as he sucked in. "Very tragic." 
It was mocking, and it confused Tatianna. Shouldn't this boy be in mourning for his father's sudden departure? Sure, his father had been nearly seventy, but falling out of a treestand while hunting wasn't the best way to go. 
"I'm sorry," Fedor flustered. "How do you two know each other?"
"We don't," Tatianna assured, resting a hand on his bicep. "Let's go pay our respects." 
Yakov stopped their departure. "The Utkins typically don't come this far north." Yakov blew smoke out. His blue eyes were like X-ray scanners, zooming over them, searching for betrayals and deceits. "I've been to all my father's meetings and never once seen Mr. Nevsky. I'm curious why you all came this way for a man you've never met."
Fedor shifted uncomfortably. "My father's orders, Mr. Morozov."
"Yakov," Yakov corrected again. "Well, I hope you will do more than visit the dead. Come back to the house. I would love to hear how things are going in the South." 
Flustered and excited, Fedor stuttered a reply, "I. I would be happy to. Thank you, sir." 
Yakov stepped on his cigarette and met Tatianna's eyes. "Bring your fiance. We can make a night of it."
Yakov waved as he walked away, but it wasn't until he made it to the casket that Fedor turned to her. "Yakov Morozov just invited us to his house," he slightly panicked. Fedor scratched his massive beard, a nervous habit. "Oh, I can't believe it," he proudly grinned. "I'm gonna get this family on the fucking map. I've got to go tell my father." Fedor kissed her cheek and ran off. 
Tatianna fell against the cast iron gate. 
And daringly, she looked toward the funeral to find Yakov's blue eyes were on her. 

Chapter 2- Family

The number of tears Yakov saw today was humorous. Even in death, they feared his father, as if their performance was being judged from Yaroslav's prison in Hell. But that was the power of his father, to intimidate even from beyond the grave, and Yakov only envied such control. 

With a drink in hand, he joined the circle of his brothers. Yefim was the eldest at twenty-eight and next in line. At the reading of the will, all of Yaroslav's power would pass to him. Yefim was trying hard not to show his excitement, but he bounced on his toes, a telling sign that he hadn't conquered the habit their father constantly berated him for. 

To the right was Yaroslav Jr., the youngest male at ten. His sadness was perhaps real, but Yakov wasn't close with the boy. He was meek, skinny, and awkward, but what kid wasn't at that age? Puberty might help him, but nothing could fix his ugly face. Not everyone could be good-looking. Someone in the family would end up with dog features, considering how grotesque their mother was.

Yakov was lucky it wasn't him. 

"So many faces I've never seen before," Yefim nodded toward the door. Another batch of visitors who only showed up to get a free meal. "Pathetic."

"They are your people now," Yakov murmured before he took a drink. 

"First thing I'm going to do is weed through the dead weight. The southern families are all a waste of space. We need to concentrate on our city."

Yakov cleared his throat and carelessly put out there, "The southern families make us a decent amount of money."

"Still. We should expand in Moscow. Cut out the Borisyuks and the Rostovas."

"Family friends for the last twenty years."

Yefim glared at him. The same blue eyes as their father. "I'm not interested in hearing what you would do, Yakov. This is my family now."

Yakov held up an innocent hand, "I'm just pointing out a flaw in your thoughts."

Dasha was beside Yefim and nudged him, "Yakov's just jealous of you, Brother. Don't listen to him." 

Dasha was sixteen and a suck-up. There was nothing worse in Yakov's eyes than someone pretending to be likable, but being naturally likable was something that Dasha failed at. 

"I've paid little attention to Yakov since he was born," Yefim assured. Then he nudged his head toward the incoming group of girls. "I'll leave it to our sisters to humor him." 

Yakov watched him leave and imagined what it would feel like to watch a bullet splatter his brain on the mahogany floor. But killing family was against the rules of their society. Even if Yakov managed to kill Yefim, he'd get nothing but excommunication.

"Oh, Yakov, what a face," his sisters giggled around him, forcing a smile to wedge through his vile thoughts. Four sisters were older, and one was younger, but they cared like their mother should have been but failed to be. The older ones were married now and were popping out babies. A new baby showed up every Christmas. He wasn't quite sure he knew how many or even all of their names, but he had been forced to hold each of them in turn. A few ran around the hall, and their giggles echoed up the 20-foot ceilings. 

None of them were upset about the death of their father. They had all been forced to marry at sixteen. Any love that lingered was destroyed by their husbands. It wasn't something that was talked about, but occasionally, a sister would return with a black eye or a bandaged hand. It was the price paid for power.

Yakov noticed the moment she stepped into the room: Tatianna Nevsky. He pretended not to, but he shifted just enough to casually glance in her direction without anyone noticing. Right over his sister's left shoulder, fifty feet from where he was standing, Tatianna hugged Fedor's arm with a pressed-on smile, dutifully greeting anyone who came to her. But her gaze was popping around the hall, impressed by the grand decorations, the high ceilings, and the great chandelier that glittered above them. This hall alone was worth more than her entire estate.

Then her eyes landed on him, a half a second, a mere accident, and she snapped her head away, forcing her deep concentration on the side of Fedor's face like he was growing a mushroom in his beard. 

Yakov hid a smirk behind his drink. Reading people had been something his father taught him; Tatianna didn't realize how much she exposed in a single look. Perhaps she knew no one paid much attention to her because she was a woman, and though Yakov would agree with such a statement for most women, including his sisters, this was not true for her. 

Luerna, Yakov's eldest sister, shifted in front of his gaze, "Who are you staring at?"

"No one." The words came out quicker than intended, and a smile pulled at Luerna's dull lips. 

She flipped her long blond hair over her shoulder, standing directly in front of him to follow the same path as his eyes. "Oh, wow." Luerna turned back to him. "Who's she?"

Yakov shrugged, "Don't know." His lie would be easily caught because Luerna was just as talented at reading people. Their father would use her at parties to be a dumb-witted girl among the men while she gathered information from their conversations. Luerna had been Yaroslav's favorite, and if she hadn't been born a girl, she might have had a decent future. Instead, she was on baby number four and five, and her pregnant belly had become enormous in such a short time. Twins typically ran in the family. His twin brother had been born a half-mutated, a barely viable ball of tissue. The doctors were sure he had stolen every nutritious morsel and let his brother strave. 

"He was talking to her at the funeral," Anastasia announced. His youngest sister was a gossiper at twelve and he despised her for it. "Looked like a great conversation till her fiancée came over and interrupted." 

"Engaged isn't married," Luerna sweetly sang as she rubbed her fat belly. 

Yakov threw back the rest of his drink, "If I listen to you all chatter another moment longer, I'm bound to lose my testicles."

"You're gonna go talk to her," Luerna revealed as she took up his empty glass. 

Yakov was about to snap back at her that he had no intention of doing so until Anastasia giggled, "He totally is."

With bitterness in his back, Yakov made his way to Fedor and his fiancé. He could hear the cackles of his devilish sisters and promised revenge upon them another time. He could always set the sprinklers off when they were having brunch on the lawn. 

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Tatianna had never seen such extravagance in her life. The house, the money, the people: it was everything she ever wanted. 

Why did I have to come from a poor family? 

Poor, perhaps, was not the right word, considering Tatianna's family was in the top five percent of society, but Tatianna wanted to be in the top one percent. She knew she was worth it. She had ideas that would blow the most educated hustler's mind. There were so many ways to make money; if her father listened to only half of what she said, they would be on the same spectrum as the Morozovs. Instead, she was used as a binding contract between two families, and her intelligence was more of a nuisance than a desirable trait. 

Fedor kept them moving through the room, trying to find a crowd that was interested in talking to him. Unfortunately, being the only black man in the room, they were met more with looks of worry and whispers. He ended up standing behind his father, Damir Utkins, who was seventy-two with a big round belly and a missing arm he lost in a war. Rumor was his father raped a black woman in service twenty years ago, and being poor, she had no option but to give Fedor up. Damir had been 'gracious' enough to take the child in. 

Tatianna never looked the man in the eye. She was sure she'd take the knife hidden at her thigh and plunge it into his socket if she was ever given the chance. 

"I should have known better," Fedor began. "What could the son of the Morozovs have to talk to me about? The whole entire organization is here."

Tatianna patted his arm for his disappointment. He thought Yakov wanted to speak to him about business. But she didn't understand how Fedor could think on the day of his father's funeral that Yakov wouldn't have other things to do. 

Fedor wanted out of his town as much as Tatianna did. He had ambition, a drive that most men envied. Despite his color, he was breaking through barriers and forcing his way into society. She loved that about him, how he never took 'no' for an answer and managed to constantly change ignorant minds simply with conversation. She had no doubt he would go somewhere, which was why she clung to him. He was her way out of boredom and mediocrity. Even if he didn't have a romantic bone in his body. 

What man does? She humored herself, taking a sip. 

"Fedor," Yakov greeted, and Tatianna nearly choked on her drink. She patted her lips as the men shook hands. "I'm glad you could make it." His brilliant blue eyes glanced toward her, "Miss Nevsky." He inclined his head, and she gave the same, swallowing harshly. 

Fedor's father, Damir, turned to Yakov and greeted him. "I was surprised by the invitation when my son came up to me, I must admit. But thank you for the generous offer."

"The southern families are all welcome here. My father paid little attention to the South, but I have some business ideas I would love to run by you. I believe Mr. Nevsky is around here as well." 

"My father?" Tatianna wondered, glancing over her shoulder. "He didn't mention it." 

Damir took over the conversation, "Business ideas? Excuse me for asking, but have these been brought up to your brother?"

Tatianna felt the pause in conversation like a rock plopped into a body of water. Yakov kept his hands clasped behind his back like a soldier as he kept his vigilant stare on Damir. "Of course." The lie was more telling than the hesitation. "I would never go behind my brother's back if that's what you are implying."

The temperature drop caused a sudden chill, and Tatianna would have shivered if she didn't find it funny as hell. Finally, some entertainment.

Damir stumbled at his words, "No, no, of course not. I was just–"

"I'd like a conversation with your son," Yakov cut off his stutters. "If you don't mind." He gestured, and Fedor was caught in indecision between being on his father's side or Yakov's, but in the end, he knew who held more power.

"Of course." Fedor kissed Tatianna's cheek and walked with Yakov to a room. Tatianna watched them go and though Fedor kept looking behind him, concerned what he was getting himself into, she only offered him a soft smile. Yakov was a lion, and he knew Fedor was a gazelle. If Yakov's sight was set on her fiancee, she was going to have to find a way to protect him.

What is a Morozov's weakness? 

Chapter 3- Proposal


It was three hours of waiting, and Tatianna was done with it. Her feet hurt. She was sick of the conversation and the fake pleasantness or, worse, the fake grieving. No one here was sad that Yaroslav Morozov was dead. There should be a freaking celebration, and there might be, if she could get out of this house and go home. 
But she was lost. 
The house ate up so much land it deserved its own town name. There were dozens of rooms, so many freaking hallways, and now she was officially unsure how to get back to the banquet hall. Tatianna fell back against the wall, removing a heel to rub her foot. 
Despite the aggravation, she wondered what it would be like to live here. There was electricity throughout the whole house. How could they afford such a thing? In her home, they had electricity in the kitchen, but everywhere else, there were candles. It was devilishly hot, and she sweated all day long. But here, she noticed a delightful breeze that kept the hallways slightly cool. Could they possibly have air conditioning? 
This was why Tatianna was ready to leave her small, poor town. She deserved the finer things in life, and her hair and makeup would last much longer in this kind of place. 
“There you are.” 
Tatianna snapped her head down the hall as Yakov approached with his hands casually in his pockets. His black jacket had been removed, and the first few buttons on his white shirt were undone. The way her stomach twisted at the sight of him was a terrible thing to feel, and she quickly slipped her shoe back on and straightened, slapping on the best mask she could muster. 
“I got lost.”
He chuckled as he paused in front of her. “I noticed. But thankfully, I have many servants who keep a lookout for strays, so I knew where to look. I, however, might have sent your fiancee to the gardens.” Yakov took a purposeful step forward, and Tatianna took an obvious step back. 
Tatianna felt the jumpstart to her heart. She didn’t know this man, she didn’t know what he was capable of, but there was one thing for certain, she had a knife tucked against her thigh and if she had to, she would use it. But this wasn’t any man. This was Yakov Morozov. She wasn’t a fool. 
Yakov could see the fear in her face and took a step back. He had thought that would excite her. Not scare her. “I only wish to talk to you.”
The space brought comfort, and she relaxed. Now, she felt foolish. Yakov did not need to take from women when they willingly gave it. “What could we possibly have to talk about?”
Yakov motioned to a door, and she followed him skeptically. They stood in a library, which happened to be the third library she had found. The number of books these people possessed was astounding. She was sure they were collective items. The Morozovs didn’t appear to be the kind of family that collected anything that wasn’t of value. 
The curtains were open to reveal the gardens and Tatianna searched the maze for Fedor. It was dark out, but he carried a lantern as he walked around, asking random people if they had seen her. She thought it was adorable and she smiled in spite of herself. 
Tatianna felt terrible for him. He deserved someone so much better than her. 
“I want to offer a business venture.” 
“Talking to the wrong person,” she mumbled, leaning against the window pane. 
Yakov had never felt jealous over a woman before. Over his father’s attention to Yefim, yes, all the time, but not for a woman’s attention. He belittled those who fell into a female’s web, much like his father had done, who became so bitter being controlled that he overcompensated by constantly talking about women being good for only two things: Fucking and impregnating. Otherwise, they were useless. This mantra had followed him, and for the most part, he had begun to believe it to be true. But now standing here staring at Tatianna, Yakov wanted her eyes on him and only him. 
“Marry me.”
Tatianna flipped her head toward him. The outrage in her gaze was humorous. “What?”
“As a business venture, of course.”
“No.” 
“You haven’t heard my proposal.”
“I don’t need to. I’m already engaged.”
“Yes, and I will make it up to him. He and I will be partners.”
“You’ve talked to him about this?”
“Not yet. But he’ll do it. Fedor is quite ambitious.”
“He loves me.”
“So?”
“He won’t let me go.”
“Every man has a price.” 
Tatianna looked out the window. Fedor was frustrated, standing on a balcony just below where she was standing. If she pounded on the window, he would look up and see her. But she didn’t. 
“Do you love him?” Yakov asked with a sigh. He didn’t want to hear it. The answer would aggravate this situation more than he wanted it to be. 
Tatianna turned to him, “Why me?”
There were selfish reasons and not-well-thought-out reasons, but the business reasons were the only ones he wanted to reveal: “Your father’s lands sit on the Pakhra Rivera. It makes it easy to distribute goods to all the distant villages. If I invested in his lands, he could become very rich in a very short time frame. And if he makes money, I make money.”
“Why me?”
Yakov shifted. She was making him uncomfortable, and she wanted a better answer. What answer did he have? This was a new business idea that he had only had five hours ago. The reasons were based on instinct, but how could he explain that to her? 
“I want you,” he surprisingly admitted. 
She flushed and bowed her head. “You want to marry me because you want to sleep with me?”
The rush of her excitement was visible, and Yakov watched it from a distance as if it were a lunar eclipse. The heat went from her cheeks, down her long neck, to the top of her fat breasts. Her nipples hardened, and with the right angle, he could see the rigid peaks through the thin material of her bra and blouse. 
“Would you rather I try to fuck you instead?”
The way her eyes narrowed on him caused a humorous smirk to push on his lips. “I’m not a whore.”
“No, you are not. But I can certainly treat you like one if you’d like.”
“Why would I like that?”
Yakov suppressed a smile as he journeyed to the drink station and poured himself a glass of vodka. “I’ve spoken with Fedor. I’m sure he is as boring in bed as he is in conversation.”
“Fedor is smart.”
“He is. Book smart. Not street smart. Is there a book on lovemaking? Because I’m sure he’s read it.” Yakov came over with a second glass for her and held it out, “But there is no book on fucking.” 
Tatianna had never been spoken to like this. She should be flustered and uncomfortable. She should be slapping him and stomping her way toward Fedor to tell him all about the rudeness in which Yakov spoke. But this wasn’t just any man. 
And his words didn’t bother her. 
Tatianna found her fingers around the glass, barely touching the tips of his. He was only inches in front of her, close enough to touch her if she permitted it. He leaned against the wall when he released the glass, and their attention simultaneously dropped to Fedor. 
Her conscience returned to her: “My apologies, but I’m not the kind of woman you are looking for.” Tatianna hurried away, placing her drink on the table as she went. This was so very wrong. Even being in a room alone with him was against the rules and everything she’d ever been taught. 
Tatianna stared at the floor. She didn’t know why she was hesitating or hadn’t slapped him for his indecency, or hadn’t instantly said no and walked away. Why was she lingering? Her gaze lifted and followed the entire length of the room. If she said yes, this would all be hers. This entire house. The entire property. Everything she had ever strove for would be possible. 
Tatianna met his gaze again. There was a darkness, a desire burning inside them and she would be lying if she didn’t admit that she felt it pull her, like a rough piece of rope sliding up her skin, wrapping around her wrists. 
She turned to him with a straightened back, “What are your plans when Yefim becomes head of the family?”
The question stalled him and irked him because the topic was sensitive. He didn’t answer her. His secrets were his and his alone. 
Tatianna didn’t stop, “He’ll kick you out or kill you because he knows that you want it. If I can see, so can he. Making plans with the sons to undermine their fathers isn’t a bad strategy, but you need more cards in your hand.”
The anger was replaced with humor. Yakov sat on his desk to study her. How could a woman think so much? It was really extravagant, and he was curious just how far she could go. “What do you suggest?”
“Steal his wife.”
A scoffing chuckle slipped out of his mouth before he took a sip to stifle it. Could he do such a thing? What would be the benefit?
“He loves her,” she continued. “Which is surprising because I doubt your brother loves anything.”
Yakov bowed his head. The truth to such a statement was nerve-racking. He wanted to defend his brother for his lack of emotion. Their father wasn’t exactly a ball of sunshine, and their mother was a fat blob who ate herself to death. Yakov wasn’t sure there was anything he loved, either. 
“Take her, and bargain for her.”
“Shall I cut a finger off and send it as a gift?” he mocked. 
“If you want.”
His blue eyes flickered over her. Tatianna stood firm. She was not so faint at heart that such talk would make her nauseous. She had seen men tortured before. Their screams were comical most times.   
Yakov chuckled, shaking his head. “My instincts are correct. Fedor doesn’t know what he has, and you are wasted with such a man.” Yakov straightened, stopping halfway toward her. He didn’t want to frighten her, only to entice her. “You know, you never answered my question,” Yakov watched her, finally noticing a bit of darkness in the back of her eyes. “Do you love him?”
The question was an insult, and she wasn’t going to stand there and take it. Tatianna left, pounding her way down the hall, surely to get more lost than she already was. 

Chapter 4- The Will

One month after his father’s funeral, they were all finally sitting down to read the will. Yakov thought it would be a family affair, but for some reason Yaroslav’s lawyer brought in every captain of their organization. From the most paid to the lowest level. Thirty five heads with their sons. They had to orchestrate this gathering in the grand hall instead of their father’s study to fit all the guests. The sun came in through the windows, blasting rays and unbelievable heat that even the air conditioner in the corner of the room couldn’t combat. He was sweating in his suit and he pulled at his collar. 

It’s been forty days without Yaroslav and Yakov still waited for the man to come back to life. His ghost floated in the hallways, watching, never giving up his control on his family. Yakov would do anything to stomp his ghost into hell. Which was why drinking and drugs would have been very beneficial these last few weeks, but Tatianna’s words kept him from such weaknesses. If Yefim came for him in the middle of the night, he needed to be ready. Living in a constant state of fear had done damage to his pride. Never before had he been scared to sleep. Today would end all of that. 

The five sons of Yaroslav sat in the front row with their sisters in the back. Thankfully no children today which was a blessing. As much as they were entertaining, the quiet was preferable. They were waiting for the last of the guests to arrive when Yakov’s aggravation broke through. “Why were so many invited to this thing?”

“Don’t worry, brother.” Yefim's legs bounced even as he chastised Yakov for being impatient. “You’ll get your inheritance soon enough.” 

Yakov clenched his teeth, twisting his notepad in a pole, willing himself to smack his brother in the face with it. 

A hand landed on his shoulder from behind. Boris Stephanov was his best friend and confident and the man whispered in his ear, “Whatever happens today, I’m on your side.” 

Yakov nodded once, but it was a needed assurance. There was a dread in his gut about today. So many things could change. He was hoping his father would treat him with the respect he deserved but one thing about Yaroslav was you never knew where you stood with him. He liked you one minute, but would shoot your dog the next. Yaroslav loved how he made people afraid of him. 

“Why would Nevsky bring his daughter?” 

Yakov spun his head faster than intended and found Tatianna just behind her father’s right shoulder. She skipped over him in her assessment of the room and scooted ahead when Nevsky directed her to a chair. She was dressed in a white pencil skirt and tight white long sleeve shirt. She held out her hand to Fedor and he kissed her knuckles in greeting. She acted like she adored it, but she was so far above him, she was like a hundred thousand dollar painting, and he was a drawing by Yakov’s five year old niece. 

Women were something he never would understand. Nor would he take the time to try. 

Yakov had tried to forget about her. Whores were plenty in the Morozov household, and they were talented at their job. But too many times he found himself fantasizing what it would be like to get between Tatianna’s legs. He bet there was a venus-fly trap down there waiting to devour him. And he didn’t think he’d mind the pain. 

Boris cackled in his ear, “The one that got away.” 

“Shut up,” Yakov hissed. 

“So touchy. Is this why you’ve been in a terrible mood?” 

“Yes, my father was ripped apart by a pack of wolves, but a witless woman is why I’m miserable.” 

Yakov exaggerated about the wolves. His father was already dead when the wolves fed on his carcass, but it hit with the right dramatic flare. 

Boris snickered, “You lovesick fool.”

Yakov spun around and smacked him with the paper, but Boris only laughed as he covered himself, profusely apologizing. Yakov huffed, found Tatianna’s gaze on him, and spun around to fix his composure. He ignored the side eye roll from Yefim and the hushed ‘children’ he chastised under his breath.   

Yaroslav’s lawyer came to the front of the room, standing in front of Yaroslav’s massive self portrait. Funny enough, Yaroslav was wearing wolf skin over his shoulders. 

The speech went on for an hour. Most of it was bullshit. Yakov barely held on to the topics as the lawyer divided up small portions of his father’s empire. It was all normal stuff, lands that people already controlled being kept in their positions. It was tedious, but necessary incase anyone got ideas about expansion or taking what wasn’t theirs. 

Yakov didn’t start to listen till the lawyer got to Yaroslav’s sons and he sat up straight, ready to take the disappointment like a man. 

“To my sons, Yaroslav Jr., Dasha, and Slavik. A yearly inheritance of three hundred thousand will be divided between you. And a hundred thousand will be given for every child you conceive. (blood or bastard). I ask you to follow your brother in leading the company, but if you chose to venture out, you will be excommunicated from the family and all inheritance will be lost.” 

Just like that, Yaroslav controlled his siblings from the grave. It wasn’t surprising, but it was disappointing to hear. Yakov didn’t feel badly for them however. He worried more now for himself. What had his father planned for him? Why not include him with his other brothers?

“Yefim and Yakov.” 

Yakov rested his elbows on his knees so he didn’t have to see his brother’s bouncing leg. He twisted the roll of paper in his hands, having completely forgotten to take any notes, but what did he need to remember all this tedious information for anyway? He was going to be cast out. He was going to be exiled. He’d become a beggar on the streets. 

No, even if he lost everything, there was no living like a peasant. He’d get it all again. It would take him years perhaps, but he’d come back swinging. 

“This decision was the hardest to make, but I made it without hesitation. Yefim will be sent to America–”

“What?” All of Yefim’s movements stalled and Yakov forgot to breathe. 

“To join forces with the Rostovas in their business venture. Yakov will take over as my replacement for the family.”

Yakov stared ahead, watching as the lawyer tucked the paper back into the manila envelope. Even as his brother got to his feet and rushed out of the room with his pregnant wife in tow, or how the crowd behind him outraged, nothing made much sense. The lawyer stood in front of him and handed him the envelope, “Mr. Morozov.” 

Boris latched onto his shoulders, “Holy fucking shit!” 

Yakov didn’t reach for it. He pushed around the lawyer and went to the vanity against the wall and pulled out a pistol. It was already loaded and he pulled back on the hammer and waited for Yefim to come back through the doors. He didn’t know if he could do it, but he knew he’d have no choice. If Yefim tried to kill him, he’d have to kill him first. There was no taking this title away from him. He deserved it even if Yefim didn’t feel that way. 

“Everybody, sit down,” Yakov demanded, never taking his eyes off the doorway. He wanted to hear him, hear the door slam, and hear Yefim’s car drive away. “Be quiet,” he barked. He licked his lips and waited. Sweat dripped from his armpit and soaked the side of his shirt. He continued to wait. Minute after minute. 

His sister Luerna ran out of the room and only two minutes later returned, “He’s gone. He went out the back.”

Did he trust her? Could he? She had been his caretaker since he was born, but did she love him more than Yefim? 

“It’s okay, Yakov,” she assured. 

If she was betraying him, he wouldn’t see it coming. Luerna could set fire to his house, admit it, and he’d still blame someone else. As the family head, having a weakness like that wasn’t worth keeping around. His father would tell him to send her away and perhaps he would, but for now, Yakov turned his attention to the audience. 

The upset was clear on too many faces. They had all been sucking up to the wrong son all these years and now they were bitter. Boris was grinning because he knew that his life would change for the simple fact of being Yakov’s friend. 

But what was going to happen for being Yakov’s enemy?

Yakov fired.  

The bullet smacked into Demir Utkins, and blood spattered onto Fedor and on Tatianna’s white skirt. She stood in horror, though she hadn’t screamed, Yakov noted. His sisters had, but not her. He kept the gun trained on the audience and watched each movement. Hands went into jackets or hips, but everyone stayed still. “Your only warning. Obey me and live.”

There was little movement, the shock keeping them still. 

Fedor was the first one to stand, covered in his father’s blood. Yakov met his gaze, preparing another bullet into the chamber, but Fedor held up a hand. He was shaking and wild eyed, “Does our conversation still apply?”

Yakov kept his grip tight. Demir Utkins had been up his brother’s ass for a long time. Killing him was purposeful, and a little selfish. He wanted Fedor to get pissed off so he could kill him, get him out of the way so Yakov could pursue Tatianna. The conversation with Fedor at his father’s funeral had been truthful then, but with this turn of events, it didn’t apply. In front of so many, Yakov had to build trust. Or they would all turn against him. 

Yakov nodded. “It does.”

Fedor glanced at his father, who sat with his head back and mouth wide and blood dripping into the carpet. The sound was more like a ‘splat’ than a drip. Fedor bowed his head, “Mr. Morozov.” 

It was slow, the acceptance, but it came. They could have outnumbered him, they could have all drawn their guns at the same time and killed him, but Yaroslav’s painting was behind Yakov and any disagreement dissolved under his scrutiny. 

Yakov wanted power like that. 

The power to control without even being in the room. 

Until then, this will do.

—-

 

Yakov found her in the servant’s quarters. Tatianna stood beside the sink as a maid went about trying to scrub out the blood but it only smeared it. She slapped a hand against her hip, “Thank you for trying.” 

Her politeness caught him off guard. He never thanked the help and he didn’t know anyone who did. 

After another failed attempt to get rid of the red stain, Yakov interrupted. “Go get her a change of clothes from my sister’s closet.”

Tatianna didn’t look back at him, staring at the floor instead. 

“Please,” he added awkwardly. 

The maid rushed off and Yakov approached from behind. There was a rush to him, an excitement that he didn’t know if he could contain. Everything he wanted was coming to him, all the pieces were fitting into place. It was addicting and filled him with a happiness he had not felt in a long time. 

Perhaps he had never been happy because this feeling was euphoric and incomparable. The only thing would make it better would be to have a woman in his bed tonight. 

Yakov stopped when he was only inches behind her. Close enough to smell her perfume, but not enough to feel her ass. He could see the different shades of blond in her hair and wondered what it would feel like to slip his fingers into it. And clench his hand around it. “You didn’t scream.” He ran his eyes down the low dip in the back of her blouse. It exposed her spine but nothing else. It was just enough tease to entice him. 

“Was I supposed to?”

He fought a smile, “Girls typically scream.”

“When they are scared or shocked. I was neither.”

“Why?”

She shrugged. Tatianna didn’t know how to answer it. When she saw him standing there waiting for his brother to come barreling through the door, she had prepared herself for it. She thought she was going to watch them try to kill each other. But when he turned the gun on the audience, she remembered how he had looked at Demir at the funeral. The eyes of a killer weren’t hard to notice. For her at least. 

Two fingertips ran down her spine, causing a terrible shiver. Yakov smirked as he watched her skin pebble. 

“Don’t,” she whispered, but she didn’t move away. She didn’t change her position.  

“You don’t belong with him.”

Tatianna hardened herself upon those words and pulled away, turning to face him. “I don’t belong to anyone.” 

“Not yet,” he smirked. 

“You don’t even know me.”

“Normal girls scream. A normal girl marries a normal man. If that is what you want to be, then Fedor is a perfect match.” Yakov backed away as he heard the maid return. He wasn’t going to keep pushing. If she truly didn’t want to explore her options and she’d rather settle for less, then there was nothing he could do. Nothing he was willing to do anyway. He was now the new leader to the Morozov family. There would be plenty of women to choose from.  “Just some advice for next time if you wish to continue your game.” Yakov turned from her. “Scream.”

Chapter 5- Luck

Just her luck, Tatianna was sitting at another funeral. The struggle to not roll her eyes was real, and she thanked the dark sunglasses, hiding her withered expression. It wasn't that she wasn't sad–though she wasn't–-it was the fact that mourning for the dead should be a private thing, something done in the middle of the night where no one can hear the pathetic weeping or see the ugly expression people make in their sobs. A lot of work went into her makeup, and she wasn't about to ruin it. Fedor stood beside her with a rigid back and stiff face. She held his hand like a dutiful girlfriend and patted him on the back when his emotions overcame him. 

He is rather emotional for a man. 

Tatianna didn't understand how anyone could still be carrying on after forty days of grief. Thankfully, it was the last day of the grieving period, and tomorrow, all the clocks would be set right, and all the sheets would be taken off the mirrors. It was hell getting ready in Fedor's home, and she wasn't sure her hair was all in the right place. 

The fallout from Yakov's movements was still being felt. There was quiet in the Utkins household as everyone tiptoed around each other. Demir had six sons and one living brother. All thought themselves deserving of Utkins' lands. And though Fedor was the oldest, he was also a bastard. The only child that was actually legitimate was a twelve-year-old, Micah. Fedor stood behind him, keeping a hand on his shoulder. He was the only brother who hired Micah a personal guard in case one of his half-brothers decided to kill him. 

The reading of the will would be tomorrow, which was something Tatianna was sad to miss. 

It did put her in a predicament. If Demir Utkins didn't pass the lands to Fedor, then marrying him wouldn't benefit her family. And it would make her look used. A rumor of Fedor taking her to his bed was all that needed to escalate, and her reputation would be tarnished. She would be seen as damaged goods. 

Her future depended on Fedor. 

And Tatianna didn't like that. She wasn't the kind of woman that sat around. Marrying Fedor had been her idea. He was the easiest to manage out of all the sons. And he was the kindest. She couldn't have asked for a better match. 

Fedor's younger brother, Sergey, approached. He had too much of his father in his face and in the beady of his dirty brown eyes. Tatianna had to hide her cringe. He had just turned fifteen and still possessed some childish features in his cheeks. Undoubtedly, he would grow to be attractive, but he was an oddball. Too polite, in Tatianna's opinion, probably to hide some narcissism.

"It is a beautiful day, is it not?" he began with a sweeping gesture of the lands. It was full of people from the small town down the hill. Utkins governed them for forty years, and he did so with generosity. But there was also the expectation that if Demir wanted anything, the people would be required to give it. Land, a priceless heirloom, a daughter; his wants were unpredictable. She was sure when the news spread through the bars and brothels, there was a quiet celebration of his passing. 

"Miss Nevsky, you really have to tell me what you use in your hair," he flicked his hands through his black tresses. "I can't seem to fix this mess upon my head."

She didn't know if he was patronizing or actually wanting an answer. Tatianna opened her mouth when a scream cut through the yard. She spun her head as Fedor gripped her arm, pulling her in a different direction. "What's going on?"

"Come, come," he demanded as he removed his gun from the inside of his coat. 

A gun went off in the distance, and the sound echoed across the vast land like a wave. The lantern not inches from her shattered, and a piece of it sliced at her calf. She gasped and almost fell if not for Fedor pulling along, "Get up!" 

"What's going on!" she asked again, limping as she ran. 

"There's a revolt. I knew this would happen. I have men posted."

"You knew this, and you didn't tell me?"

"There was no sense of worrying you."  

A herd of soldiers enveloped them like a cacoon as they returned to the house. His brothers were scattered, going in their own directions. Another gun fired, and the man in front of Tatianna fell. 

As silly as it was, she tried to scream, but it came out as a pathetic moan that embarrassed her, but thankfully, no one was paying much attention. 

Sergey took up her other arm, wrapping it around his shoulder. "Where to?"

"The safe room."

She was surprised Sergey had stayed close by. She thought he would have had his own escort. But he seemed just as confused. 

"What do we do?" Sergey asked. 

"I've hired men. Father's hold on the people is at an end. We must fight if we don't want to be taken out."

"You are always ready for anything. I cannot fathom your intellect. I'd much rather draw than read those war books you constantly study."

"I've been telling you to prepare for years."

"Well, I figured you could simply handle it, and I'll reap the benefits."

Fedor sighed and set Tatianna in a chair before he turned and gave his brother an exasperated look. "If Father names you heir, all is lost."

"If Father names me heir, I'm redoing this entire living room. It is absolutely dreadful." 

Fedor chuckled, despising and adoring at the same time. 

Gunfire blasted the window on the left, making Tatianna fall to the floor to cover, but she didn't hide. She wanted to see these men. They were stupid little crickets for attacking. When another soldier collapsed nearby, it wasn't a scream that came through her throat but a scoff. 

I refuse to go to another funeral.

"Get to the safe room, Tati." Fedor kissed her cheek and checked his gun before he went to the shattered window to search for the resistance. 

Running away with the women disgusted her. But she had never been allowed to shoot or hold a gun and wouldn't be much help anyway. 

When the shooting stalled, Tatianna ran across the wooden floor into the kitchen. The maids scurried around, trying to find good places to hide. She waved her hand. "To the safe room, let's go." Tatianna pushed them all out, pulling resistant old ladies as they cowered. Gunfire resumed, and a bowl of flour burst. One woman wouldn't move despite how hard Tatianna grabbed her arms.

"The baby. The baby," she whimpered and hid her face in her arms. 

Tatianna gripped her arms. "Where?" 

"Third room down the hall. Please, miss. Please." 

Tatianna ordered another servant to take the woman before Tatianna grabbed a vegetable knife and journeyed down the hall. It was quiet back here, blocking out the sounds from the yard. The brick walls kept her safe, but there was no telling if someone had come through the back. It increased her breath. She didn't know what kind of resistance this was, but it didn't matter. She was not a part of it and, therefore, an enemy. 

With every step, her breath got heavy. Blood dripped down her leg. She had lost her shoe, and she left a bloody footprint behind. On the third door, Tatianna pushed it open and found the crib. The baby lay asleep inside. She smiled upon stepping up to the little boy. Abram was the last known son of Demire Utkins. Another victim of rape, born from a barmaid. She leaned over it, touching its tiny cheek, wondering what it would be like to have a child. There was a part of her that wanted one now, to hold and cherish, but then the other part of her hated the very idea of it. Perhaps because having a child would limit her, and she wanted to be limitless. 

A breeze behind sent a chill up her spine. Arms encircled her shoulders, a hand on her mouth to quiet her screams. Tatianna dug her nails into her capture's skin while the other slammed the knife into his thigh. He groaned into her hair before he flung her away, and she rolled across the ground till she hit a wall. The stranger was dressed in black with a ski mask. She panted, eyeing him, knowing she'd never make it to the door. But she tried anyway. 

She ran, and he punched her hard, knocking her to the ground. There was no fighting consciousness, and Tatianna went limp.

Chapter 6- Learning

There were six men in the room, all wearing black ski masks. Tatianna had woken with a terrible pain in her head, so much so tears dripped down her swollen cheek. She didn't want to know what she looked like. Chances were makeup wasn't going to cover the bruise. 

She watched them, her captors, with her hands tied in front of her. They were all Russian but with a slang tone in their connotation. One of them had a limp, and another was missing an arm, but they were young from the sound of their voice and their bickering. They talked as if she wasn't even in the room, swapping war stories from Afghanistan. Three of them had lost their brothers and their fathers. They said it like a badge of honor. Though hundreds of thousands of Russians were dead because of it, Tatianna was never interested in it. Her family was excused from the draft, much like every family in the Morozov circle. Only the lower class was sacrificed, which meant these men were hired. 

Who would come after her? And why?

Tatianna played with this thought in her head. She was not from a top-tier mafia family. Her family had no enemies. She wasn't the heir or due for any inheritance. If whoever stole her was going after Fedor, they would have waited until they knew if he was the heir to the Utkins fortune before snatching her away.

This was ill-planned, whoever it was.

Her captors glanced at her, checked the time, and continued their conversation. "Where am I?" The man with a limp was in charge, and he ignored her. "Excuse me? I'm talking to you. Where am I? Hello!"

With annoyance, they left the room.

"Wait, I'm thirsty! I want some water."

The door shut on her, and she was alone. She looked further around the room, recalling the checklist she had been given if she was ever kidnapped. She thought it had been such a funny day with the tutor as he spoke about how to cut through duck tape and zip ties. At ten, she giggled. At eleven and twelve, she listened to it intently. But at thirteen, the hope of being kidnapped to see what kind of badass woman she could be was deflated. No one was going to steal the daughter of a sad widower. She couldn't recall all the times she put herself in harm's way just to see what would happen. 

Now, at nineteen, she knew what these men could do, and fear was plenty. 

But fear wasn't going to save her. 

There was only one exit and no windows. It was a cellar, cold, damp, and from the rings on the floor, that moved out storage to keep her contained here. To escape, she would have to barrel through them, and she wasn't sure she could contend with war veterans. 

I'm pretty positive I can't. Doesn't mean I won't try. 

The door opened, and one man came through. He was smaller than the others, probably younger, too, with all his limbs intact. Which meant they didn't see her as much as a threat and sent her the most feeble to give her a drink. 

"Hi," Tatianna whispered. "What's your name?"

"Drink," he held out a cup. His hand trembled just a little. 

"You know-" She took the cup between her hands. "I think a man in a mask is very sexy." She ran her eyes over him, a smirk developing on her lips. He said nothing, but she didn't need him to. "I've got this terrible itch I've been dying to scratch. Could you help me?" She handed him the cup. 

"You want me to scratch you?"

The adorable response made her giggle. He had to be no more sixteen. It wasn't nice to play with his heart, but his innocence was bendable. Tatianna pulled at her dress, revealing her leg. Further and further, it climbed, and the boy watched with intensity. Past her knee, she pulled it. "It's right under here." 

Tatianna snatched the knife strapped to her thigh and attacked, pressing it into his shoulder and pinning him to the wall. "Where am I?"

He groaned and shifted, crying out when it tore more muscle. "You're under the church on Levick Street." 

"Who are you people?"

"We're mercenaries."

"Who hired you?"

"I don't know." Tatiana pushed harder, and he cried, "I don't know!"

Based on his rank, she believed him. Tatianna pulled back, and his blood sprinkled the ground. She used the bloody knife to saw through the rope, watching the boy. He sat on the ground, holding his shoulder and focusing on breathing. He pulled his mask off to get more air, but she didn't know his face. She was right to assume he was a teenager. Her captures believed her so incompetent to take care of herself, not only did they not frisk her to make sure she wasn't carrying a weapon, but they thought a teenager would be able to keep her compliant. 

Men. 

Tatianna limped back. The pain in her calf had come alive when she stood. Blood dried down her leg and caked into her toes. She had somehow lost her other shoe in transit. "How do I get out of here?"

The kid scoffed. "I ain't telling you shit." A temper came with the pain, and he glared at her.

"Aw, are you embarrassed a woman beat you?" She taunted, pointing her knife down at him. They hadn't even given him a gun. She should be embarrassed that they thought so little of her. Tatianna peeked out the door. The hallway was long, but it led to some stairs. She would have to bypass another room, and the door was wide open. The sound of the men was loud and boisterous. They had no worry that she wouldn't stay where they left her. 

"Get up," she ordered. 

The kid wiggled up the wall, panting as he did so. 

His patheticness annoyed her. "Can you stop? I just stabbed your arm. You're not dying." She shoved him in front of her, "Is there another way out of here?"

"Why would I tell you?"

She gripped his shoulder, digging her nails into his skin, "Because otherwise, I'm gonna push you through that room, and all the men in there will know how you really thought I had an itch." 

Though there was some hesitation, the boy's embarrassment won out. "To the left. There's a secret exit that will take you through a tunnel." 

Tatianna patted him, "Good boy. Now you're going to wait five more minutes, and then you are going to tell them a group of men came through those tunnels and stole me back. You followed as much as you could but were stabbed in a brutal brawl. Sound good?"

He bowed his head but ultimately agreed. 

Tatianna slipped to the left. The hall was dark and got colder the further she went; on the left wall of the dead end was a piece of fabric covering a hole in the concrete. She pushed through it, feeling along the wall as she went. It was completely black, and she could hear her panting. She was terrified she wasn't going to make it. Five minutes hadn't been enough time, but she knew any longer, the men would come looking for the boy. 

Tatianna picked up her pace. She could hear the echoes as the men shouted from the church. Up and up, she climbed till she came out through a hollowed-out tree. She didn't know this town as well as she knew her own, but the best thing about Fedor's estate was that it was on top of a hill and overlooked the city below. With a few turns, she found his house all aglow and ran. 

 

 

Yakov watched Fedor pace for the third hour. He sat in the leather wingback chair with a glass of whiskey in hand. The phone was propped just an arm's length away. Hour after hour ticked back, and Yakov, for the fifth time, blandly responded. "I'm sure she's fine."

"What if they abuse her? Oh, my Tati. She's too fragile. I can't. If someone hurts her, I don't know what I'll do." 

Yakov continued to observe him. He had no idea what kind of woman he was marrying, did he? It was sad, really, that he was so gullible. But it helped Yakov figure out why Tatianna was staying with him, and it made Yakov adore her even more. 

What he wasn't prepared for was when Tatianna entered the room. Yakov stood with his mouth dumbly open and his thoughts quiet. Her feet were covered in dirt. Her dress was torn and dirty, and her hands were stained red. She was disheveled but not exhausted. She smiled through the terrible welt on her face and watched Fedor continue his pacing. Though she had noticed Yakov, she didn't acknowledge him. 

"I'm okay." 

The words shot Fedor into consciousness, and he rushed to her, swinging her around. "Oh, thank God! Where have you been? I've had my men searching everywhere. I even called Mr. Morozov to aid me." 

Tatianna met Yakov's gaze from over Fedor's shoulder. She was calculating, but Yakov wasn't about to give her anything. He shifted, grabbing his watch off the table and slipping it over his wrist. "Are you well, Miss Nevsky?"

Tatianna pulled back, but Fedor kept his hands on her hips, surveying the damage. "I'm fine. I managed to escape on a technicality." 

"Who was it?" Fedor asked, "Where are they?"

"In a church off Levick. They were all in black masks."

Yakov took up the cue. "Allow me to take care of it, Fedor. I am well versed in retribution."

Fedor nodded, careless, running a hand through Tatianna's hair as he stared at her. "I'm such a fool to allow you out of my sight."

Tatianna pressed a smile, but it was weak. She was surprisingly tired now. The rush of adrenaline was running out, and her leg throbbed. For a moment, the world spun, and Fedor was quick to whisk her off her feet, promptly setting her on the couch before he called for a doctor. He propped her leg up and yelled for a maid to clean her up. 

The whole time, Yakov studied her. Perhaps she did love Fedor with how she batted his hand, laughed at him, assured him she was fine, and brought him in for a sweet kiss. It was vexing. It would take longer than he intended to get her by his side. 

Yakov fixed the collar of his jacket before he began working the buttons. "I'll be off now." He turned to the other exit so as not to pass her, but Tatianna wasn't about to let him leave without notice. 

"Thank you, Mr. Morozov, for coming to my rescue."

Yakov kept his back to her. "Anything for family."

The way he stood was telling. Why not face her? "Please don't venture out so late. I'm sure Fedor can find a room for you." 

Yakov waved a hand and left. 

But he wasn't about to go home. His car was waiting for him, and with a cigarette between his lips, he dived into the backseat as two of his men sat across from him. One lit his cigarette, and the other handed him a gun. After so many days of being the head of the family, he had gotten them well-trained to do what needed to be done without saying it. And those that couldn't grasp it would find themselves doing bitch work that no one else wanted to do, like cleaning up bodies. 

But there would be no need for cleanup tonight. 

They pulled up beside the church, and his guard quickly opened the door for him. He blew smoke out as he climbed the stairs; a quick glance at his watch told him it was just after late-night mass, leaving it empty aside from one priest that stayed in case a stray wandered in looking for some forgiveness. Yakov waved a hand at him, and the man wisely dived out of the church.

Down the back stairwell and through a hidden door, he came upon the room full of black ski-masked-wearing men. There was a slight panic in the lot of them, and when he entered the room, they all got quiet and gradually shifted to the back of the room, trying to gain as much space as possible. 

Yakov inhaled deeply from his cigarette as he eyed each of them, but he landed on the man with a limp, the leader, and blew out the smoke. "You failed."

The leader pulled off his mask. The older gentleman, named Vlad, had a tattoo on the side of his neck, the symbol of their family line of gypsies. They may be Russian, but they were the cesspool of society, the ones that never adapted to the new way of life. People like Vlad were disgusting to Yakov because they had so much potential, but they refused to change, preferring to 'live off the land the way God intended.' 

"We stole her. You never indicated how long to keep her."

Yakov suppressed a smile. He was trying to wiggle his way out of his screw-up. Yakov despised him even more. "I had hesitation using gypsies. I figured your intellect was rather low. It appears I was right. Every mistake is a learning experience. Thank you for teaching me."

Vlad glanced at his friends. He didn't know what was going on or what he should say. 

Yakov tossed several bills to the floor. "For your time." He waved as he left, and his guard made sure to shut the door and slip a wedge under it. As he climbed the stairs, liquid fell out of red containers. The smell of gas became heavy and followed him. As soon as he was at the top, he turned back down and listened to them banging on the door. It was loud and vibrated the floor. 

He tossed his cigarette and watched the fire slide down every step. 

Their yells transformed into horrified screams. 

Yakov turned away. 

Chapter 7- Long Game

Tatianna was positive she shouldn't be here. As her car stopped in front of the restaurant, she stared at it, unmoved, even as her driver opened the door. She twisted her fingers in her lap, hating how much effort she put into her appearance. But what was supposed to do? When the leader of a mafia family invites you to dinner, you cannot say no. 

And I didn't want to.

That was the truth, but not something she would admit out loud. 

Tatianna's stomach was in knots. It felt like when her brothers were at the tire swing by the lake, and they would make fun of her, convinced she would never jump from it. And when they were proven wrong, she basked in the astonishment on their faces. That's what this was. When she walked in, she wanted Yakov to be just as surprised. 

With a burst of courage, Tatianna grabbed the man's hand and stepped out. Her leg was nearly healed two weeks after her abduction. Her father kept her on bedrest and refused to let her go anywhere. This was her first outing, and she had lied to him. She told her father she was going to a sewing group. He loved to believe she would actually do something like that, and so the lie was easy to mold. 

Though she was sure if her father ever asked her to sew anything, he'd have her in every lie she's told since she was thirteen. 

The restaurant was loud and boisterous. A live band played a fast-paced jingle that had all the couples dancing. A heavy plume of smoke clung to the ceiling, and male servants went about with food trays and drinks, while the women workers wore tight shorts and bras and walked around with trays of cigarettes. 

A man greeted her at the front and guided her through the club. It was unlike anything she'd ever seen before—a place her father would have forbidden and the kind of club Fedor would be embarrassed to venture into. It wasn't fit for a lady of her standing, and yet, she found a few people she would see at parties chatting away with total disregard. 

Up a flight of stairs and behind glass doors, Yakov was sitting behind a desk with a cigar between his fingers. He leaned back as she entered and smiled. There was no look of surprise, no shock. Just a smug satisfaction that pissed her off. As if he knew she'd come. 

Tatianna waited for him to speak, but he continued to silently congratulate himself, and she couldn't stomach it. She wanted to punch him, but since she couldn't do it physically, she attacked verbally: "I know it was you."

The smugness dissipated slowly like a weak flame dying out. With a flick of Yakov's hand, it sent his guards out, and he sat up, putting out his cigar as the doors shut, leaving the noise on the other side. It was quiet, and Tatianna shifted uncomfortably. She hoped that hadn't pissed him off too much. 

"How?"

Tatianna wasn't about to let him steer this conversation. She had spent two weeks trying to figure out the reason for the attack, why Yakov would pretend to be saving her when it was so clear it had been something he put together. She even tried to convince herself she was wrong, that it couldn't have been him, but her instinct wouldn't let her. "Tell me why."

"Tell me how," he demanded.

Tatianna shifted, glancing around the office. There was a couch, a table set for dinner, and his desk. She wondered how often he came here and why he didn't hang out at home. There were no pictures on the walls and no indication he had family. How was he coping with being the head of the family for two months? Was it everything he ever wanted?

She set her purse on her lap as she sat on the couch. "I suggested you steal Yefim's wife, and then you steal me. It made sense. But you botched it. I could have planned it better."

Yakov sat on the couch with her. He leaned back, an arm on the back of it, while he crossed his legs. His fingers were an inch from her shoulder. Yakov always wore a fancy suit, but tonight, he sported a thick wool, dark blue sweater and black pants. She wondered if he paid someone to find his outfits for him. She doubted he wasted his time to get the latest styles. It made her lose a little confidence. The tight dress she wore was last year's fashion, but at least her purse was up to date. Would he notice? 

"But why?" Tatianna pushed. 

Yakov shifted. She constantly managed to make him feel uncomfortable. No one typically questioned him. Women were more interested in bedding him than berating him. But it's like this one had no sexual drive whatsoever. Could she be lesbian? He didn't know many, but the ones he did were more butch-like. Even so, it would make more sense. 

He wasn't sure he wanted to tell her the reason, but the words came out regardless: "I would come to your rescue. You would fall terribly in love with me, and your fiance would be so indebted that he would have no choice but to give you over to me."

Tatianna blinked with an open mouth. And then she burst out laughing. 

The laugh went on for a considerable long time. Every time she thought she was done, another round of laughter would take hold of her. Her side hurt. She could barely breathe, and she slapped a hand over her mouth in an attempt to suppress it, but it kept coming. 

Yakov got up, poured them two glasses of whiskey, and sat down, waiting patiently until her laughter got a hold of itself. He took a sip, eyeing her, adoring and loathing her for making him feel like a fool. 

"Truly," she finally coughed out. "Why?" She dabbed her wet eyes with a handkerchief, blowing out air to calm herself. When he was silent, she looked at him. His gaze hopped around the room, drinking before he set his glass in his lap. "Oh," she whispered, sobering quickly. In order to pierce this embarrassing situation, Tatianna cleared her throat. "Do you know where you went wrong?"

Yakov wasn't able to reply before she answered her own question. 

"You didn't vet your men well enough. You cannot hire random people to do your bidding properly. You must interview them and build that loyalty. Success isn't one person pulling the weight of an entire ship. It is everybody doing their part."

"Why do you speak like this?"

Tatianna paused and then asked, "Like what? Educated?"

"If you want to put it that way. My sisters are educated, but they only talk about flowers and food and babies and other senseless stuff–"

"What makes that senseless? Because it doesn't pertain to you? I can talk about food and babies and have wonderful conversations. There's a lot to be said about food–"

"You," Yakov chuckled, leaning forward. "You are two different people."

"What makes you say that?"

"Just an observation."

"I feel we are all two people. The person you have in front of your men will not be the same that makes love to a woman. Is it?"

"I guess not."

"And I guess I don't know how to be in front of you. I don't know if you want me to be pleasant or honest."

"Honest," he answered quickly. "Always honest."

"I will be unapologetic."

"That's fine."

"You make me very nervous," Tatianna admitted and then bowed her head. She hadn't wanted to reveal that, but now honesty was the only thing on her lips. 

Yakov sat back and wondered, "Why?"

She barked, "Why? Because you are the boss, aren't you? You rule over my father, my household, and everyone I know. You can kill so effortlessly and burn buildings to the ground without care. You can have anything you want with a wave of your hand. So what happens if I upset you? What happens if I deny your advancement? Who will receive punishment if I don't comply with your demands?"

Yakov rested a finger against his temple. He watched as she twittered, taking up her drink, sipping and hissing in disgust before she set it on the side table. She held her purse tight as if it kept her safe. "You have already upset me," he admitted. Her eyes widened. "You have already denied my advances and I highly doubt you would comply with any demand. Have I retaliated against you?" 

Tatianna struggled with a response. 

Yakov rested his drink on the table behind him before he scooted forward on the couch till their knees nearly touched. An arm still stretched across the back, invading her space, and Tatainna's breath caught as she stiffened. "I asked for honesty, and you lied to me." 

"I haven't lied. You do make me nervous."

"But not for the reasons you claim." 

Every muscle stiffened as she stared at him wide-eyed. There was a secret she was keeping, even to herself, and to know that he had already found it frightened her. How could he read her so well? 

"And I don't need to force you into submission, Miss Nevsky. Do you know why?" Yakov's hand landed on her ankle, and she watched it glide over her calf and up to her knee. Her breath hitched with every inch.

But he stopped, and she yearned for him to go higher. 

"Because with or without it, you will come to me." 

She swallowed hard, trying not to move, to 'accidentally' force his hand to drift further. "What makes you think that?"

He shrugged, his eyes sinking down her long neck to the dip in her cleavage. "If it is the long game you wish to play, then I am here for it. But if, at any point, you want to give up this farce of a dutiful daughter and doting fiancee, I will be more than happy to rescue you." 

Tatianna couldn't breathe with him so close. His words were sinking into her as if she were a dying ship in the ocean heading straight for the bottom of the abyss. His eyes were a Siren's song, drugging her, pulling her. The word 'rescue' was a spear to her heart because, for so long, all she wanted was to be saved. 

To save herself, Tatianna pushed out, "I'm marrying Fedor." She pulled her leg out, fixed her dress, and stiffly maneuvered her back to him. 

Yakov smirked, impressed by her withdrawal. "Then what are you doing here?"

Tatianna snapped to her feet, a ship breaking the waves, returning to the surface. "I should go." 

Yakov sat back and watched her fiddle with indecision. He was disappointed but not surprised. She was loyal and obedient—everything a woman of her birth should be. He didn't want to break those values in her. He just wanted them for himself. He wanted her to be loyal and obedient to him. 

"My sister Luerna is celebrating the birth of her twins," Yakov interrupted her departure. "I know she would love more female friends, and since you are such a great conversationalist about senseless things, I'd like to extend an invitation. The gentlemen will be having a much more interesting time. I'll send an invite to Fedor."

Tatianna stood before the door, ready to leave and never return. But this sentence stalled her, and she spun around. "What are you planning for him?"

Yakov took up his drink. "It doesn't concern you."

"I'm marrying him, it does concern me. He is a good man."

"Yes. I'm aware."

"He won't see that you are playing him to get to me."

"As grandiose as your ego is, Miss Nevsky, I'm sad to report it is not about you. I had plans long before I met you that the Utkins had potential. Fedor is my way into the rest of his family."

"Killing his father wasn't the best way to go about it."

A smile paused him. She could see his faults better than anyone. "No. Unfortunately, I am impulsive. It is a family curse." 

Tatianna didn't know if she believed it, but she doubted Yakov lied often. He didn't seem very good at it. "Fedor likes you. He wants to be just like you."

Yakov stood. He looked squarely at her. They both knew the impossibility of such a thing. As she herself said, Fedor's a good man, and good men don't become mafia leaders. "Should I tell him, or should you?"       

Chapter 8- Weakness

Yakov sat on the windowsill. The party was well underway, and the hall was full of gentlemen. Gambling was currently illegal under the Soviet Government, but here in his household, he dared any KGB to tell him he couldn't do something. 

Speaking of, several KGB soldiers sat at a round table drinking his liquor and smoking his cigarettes. Their table was rigged to help them make the most money. Keeping members of the KGB happy was the only way to survive in this decade. Little did they know that the men they were playing with were listening for any juicy detail that could help Yakov blackmail them in the future.  

Luerna's husband, Novo, was the center of attention. Having healthy twins was a miracle, and they made sure he was celebrated for doing absolutely nothing with drinks, drugs, and women. Novo was nearly forty and a captain in the army with an attitude to match it. Yakov never liked him much, but now that Yakov was the boss, Novo was very accommodating. It could have been the threat to cut off his balls if Novo ever beat his sister again, or they just understood each other better now. 

Fedor entered the room, a little taken aback by the amount of people. Yakov tried to see it from a virgin's view, and he could say it was a little overwhelming. Women were walking around topless while others gyrated on a makeshift stage. Yakov hid his scoff with a quick drink. Fedor's innocents annoyed him but Yakov raised his hand in greeting, and Fedor gaily approached him. 

Fedor held out his hand in greeting and said, "This is very extravagant, Mr. Morozov."

Yakov shook his hand. "How many times must I ask you to call me Yakov?"

"I'm sorry. It doesn't feel right." 

Yakov poured him whiskey and passed him the drink. "We are the same age."

"From separate worlds." Fedor raised the glass in salute and inhaled it. An embarrassing cough followed that he tried to suppress. 

Yakov couldn't disagree. He killed for the first time at ten, merely by accident, which taught him all the ways he could get away with murder. He lost his virginity at twelve, learning early how he could use his good looks for nearly anything. He was drinking and doing drugs by fifteen. Unfortunately, the only lesson learned from that was addiction can screw you up worse than STDs.  

As good as a man Fedor appeared, Yakov was using this night to find his flaws because everyone has shortcomings. And Yakov's theory was that women were Fedor's downfall. So, he made sure to have plenty of options tonight. Every race was in attendance. How often did Fedor meet with people of his own color? Being surrounded by people who looked nothing like him had to be odd. Yakov could relate. There weren't many people that possessed the amount of power he had and whenever he met someone like him, he became enchanted. 

With a few drinks, Fedor sat relaxed on the couch. Yakov passed him a vial full of white powder, but Fedor waved it away. It annoyed him. Fedor was keeping track of his liquor intake, staying just above plastered. No matter how much Yakov pushed, the man knew his limits. 

"So when is your wedding?"

"Two months," Fedor said with a smile. 

"It is a long engagement."

"Yes. Tatianna wanted to have enough to plan a glorious wedding. She likes to keep busy."

"How did you meet?"

"Many years ago. Her brother and I were best friends. Before he passed away, he asked me to look after her."

"I didn't know."

"It was terrible. Alexei was a very funny man. A disease ate away at him till he was nothing more than skin and bone. Tatianna suffered greatly at his loss." 

Yakov nodded. Loss wasn't something he was privy to. There was very little grief when his mother and father died. And though he saw death often, he didn't connect the pain of it. There weren't many people Yakov cared for. In fact, as of right now, there was only one.

"I look forward to an invitation to your Stag party."

Fedor snapped his head. "Really? Would you come?"

"Of course. Are we not friends?"

A wide grin spread on Fedor's face. "Of course," he laughed. He took up his drink and clinked Yakov. "Wonderful." 

Yakov watched him gulp it back. He made sure to quickly refill it before he waved to the women waiting against the wall. He leaned back and gestured. "A preview." 

Fedor's eyes widened as they approached. He probably had never seen so many pairs of tits in all his life. They wore only panties and heels. Fedor shifted uncomfortably, glancing at him. "Tatianna is only in the next room. I think I should go."

"Nonsense. You are only looking, Fedor. And perhaps touching." Yakov winked. "There is nothing wrong. Don't tell me you are a virgin."

Fedor kept his attention on the women as they danced before him. "My father paid someone when I turned sixteen. But she was very aggressive, and I embarrassingly left." 

Yakov cackled. There were always horror stories when it came to hookers. He had a few of his own. "Well, they will be as gentle as you desire."

With a nudge of Yakov's head, one of the girls approached Fedor, taking his hands and shaping her breasts with them. He took in a sharp breath and watched his thumbs wave over the woman's nipples. Only seconds later was she straddling Fedor's lap, and his hands had her ass in his palm. 

Yakov took that as his cue to leave. A woman touched his shoulder, but he waved it off. He lit a cigarette, leaning against the wall, and less than a minute later, Tatianna was in the doorway. 

Right on time, Luerna.

Yakov observed Tatianna. He didn't know what she would do. He imagined her stalking up to Fedor and slapping him, but instead, she backed out of the room. 

Yakov chased after her. He checked the room the women were hanging out in. Their loud, shrill voices were enough to keep him hidden, but Luerna was checking the door, and as soon as she saw him, she winked and pointed toward the balcony. Yakov gave her a smile, the only sister out of the lot of them who was worth her weight. He walked along the hallway till he got outside, and there Tatianna stood against the balustrade with a cigarette between her lips and her arms crossed and hip propped. From behind, she looked like a woman of power equal to him, and it caught his breath. 

He was slow to join her. Sometimes, watching her was better than talking to her. 

Tatianna glanced at him but turned and studied the hedge maze below. "You must think I'm stupid." 

"Not you," he assured. 

"Then what was the point of that? To make me jealous? My father had a girlfriend every time my mother was pregnant. Men cheat. This is their nature. It doesn't bother me." 

"I found a weakness."

Tatianna scoffed. "That was it? I could have told you that. It is the same for all–"

"No. It is not my weakness."

"For someone so self-aware, you shock me."

"My weakness is poor planning."

Tatianna fought a smile. She glanced at him, and his humorous smirk caused her to giggle. "And impulsiveness."

"That too." Yakov turned and leaned against the balustrade, slipping his hands in his pockets. "If it makes you feel better, I did try liquor and drugs first."

"You could have just asked me."

"Fine. What is a weakness in Fedor that I could exploit to destroy your relationship and get you to marry me instead?"

"I'm afraid you went the wrong direction. Cheating will make him feel terribly guilty, and he will be agonizingly sweet for the next two years." 

"And that won't make you leave him?"

Tatianna was getting annoyed with how well this man seemed to understand her. "What good woman leaves a man like that?"

Yakov sighed heavily. He rarely felt defeated, but everything he tried to do seemed to fail with her. If she felt nothing, she wouldn't humor him. But perhaps she was doing so out of fear. How to test that theory?

"If you don't leave him, I'll destroy your family."

Tatianna giggled. "Okay."

"Why don't you take me seriously? Aren't you afraid of me?"

"I was afraid of you at first. But after our last conversation, I've learned your weakness."

"Are you insinuating you are my weakness? Because I must say, your ego–"

"It's Luerna."

His brows knit as he studied her. "What would make you say that?"

"I think it's adorable. Your big sister–"

Yakov gripped her arm, pulling her into him. "Why would you say that?"

With a hand on his shoulder, Tatianna gently smiled. "Your secret is safe. Please don't worry." 

His gaze flickered all over her face. She was smarter than he anticipated, and he didn't know if she was better off dead. She knew him too well. Did she have some insider helping her? She could not have all this information just from moments alone together. 

Yakov pushed her out of his way and strutted back into the house. 

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